greater change

it started few weeks ago, and it still continues on. this time, it's bigger, more complicated, harder. the severance of a relationship that was is now on the verge of a physical manifestation--separation, of bed and board, of habits, of life.

few months from now, at the time when i will need all support available, i will lose one--the strongest, the most needed. once more, everything will come crashing down at the very moment when i had to keep myself together. for my future. for my own, separate life.

it seems that the universe is conspiring to move into motion a break in the chain of love begun not so long ago. the crack has gone longer. the gap is getting wider. soon there will be nothing. but a silent void. the life built upon the test of time is now being worn by the advent of another time.

this is it. the divergence. the inevitable.

and the unbearable.